Most people are stronger than they know. They just forget to believe in it sometimes...am i one of these people??...

Feelings for you are still around just that it’s more settled down.
It has definitely faded from where we left off.
I guess this shud be good coz I wun need to miss u so much like how I did before.
It’s around 30 plus days more before you come home.
You coming home was once the BIGGEST thing in my life
but now; as it nears; it’s my BIGGEST FEAR…
And now im wishin tat u wun come home so soon coz when u do,
I don’t know what im about to face and what im gona do when anything happens.

~I am me. I always avoid. Therefore i dun need to fuss about sth. But now avoiding is getting old and i told myself that this time it wud be different. And yet, old habits kick in. I jus hope i can pull through this coz when i do, it wud be so WORTHWHILE and it wud probably be the BEST thing that wud happen in a REALLY long time~