a Friday(18/5/07) to remember...

yes...
its AFTER S's exam period::~
no wonder he's being SWEET~!!!!

lied to my mom bout da charity concert go-ation::~
went to S's hse::~
missed him::~
went into his car::~
he wuz wearing da stupid purple piggy shirt::~
=.=:"""
and LISTENING TO AVRIL LAVINGE"S ANCIENT SONG"S~!!!!
I tot my ears were gonna auto-shut down...
then "The Reason" came up::~from da MP3
he told me dat dis song MEANS ALOTT TO HIM~!!!
here's why::~ (he dint tell la::im juz guessin')

this is da lyrics::

I'm not a perfect person (s)
There's many things I wish I didn't do (s dumping amanda 4 natalie)
But I continue learning (s learnin HOW NOT TO BE A PLAYBOY~)
I never meant to do those things to you (you=amanda)
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be (which is a playboy)
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you (me~?? or amanda~?? or poh yee~??)

I'm sorry that I hurt you (amanda)
It's something I must live with everyday (tis true.. now even I aso hav to do dat *worries*)
And all the pain I put you through (aww...)
I wish that I could take it all away (yea rite)
And be the one who catches all your tears (T^T)
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

and the reason is You [x3]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know ( perfect bf)
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

understandd~???
HE LOVES HER~!!!
IM NOTHING~!!!

WHY~?!?!?!?!?!
Sobs*
anywayz scratch that::~
we reached home::~
made out::~
he came hard-ish~ i lik ^^...
I TRIED to come::~
but he did quite a great hj::~

went to visit auntie in his new/old hse::~
there wuz da jie jie there::~
chatted bout s and him getting BRACES~!!!!
Hahahahahahahhaahaahahahahaahahahaahahaha~!!!!
Im sooo not kissing him~!!!
XD
then his hair... etc etc
then my hair::~
jie jie recommend a shampoo~
THEN JIE JIE SAID STH INCREDIBLE~!!
she told s to introduce me to EVERYONE HE MEETS~!!!!
(as courtesy)
Hahaha~ Im OFFICIALLY DA GF~ rite~??
(so wad if amanda had sex b4~?? ishhhh)

later, went to get boxes 4 moving hse::~
in da car (when parked downstairs)
he wuz sweet::~
quality time::~
^^...

went upstairs::~
he changed::~
went to eat LOK LOK::~
not bad la::~ ish ish::~
then went to bsb court::~
s played::
I called cyi::
auntie chit chat wid her frends::~

after s played::~
went home::~
he wanted to bathe wid me::~
i sed no cuz his dad might come home::~ (we left auntie to "pat" wid her pallies)
then seconds after i sed i dint wanna mandi wid him::~
UNCLE AND AUNTIE CAME HOME~!!!
XD
*close call weiiii~!!!!!*

after s bathed::~
in his room::~
cosy cosy::~
he had a hard on::~
I felt turn-ed on by his hip trusting when i hj'ed him~!!!
HOTT*

then , went out gathering wid his trops frends::~
at Swensens::~
vry vry expensive~!!!
ate ice-cream::~
there wuz dis preety-ish gal::~
hu sed that she saw me in coll (library)::~
big shock there::~
saw lay mun::~
another su mei chiq::~
inner beauty::~ haihzz

then there wuz another gal::~
look like su lin::~
SPOKE LIKE HER TOO~!!!!
i tot she's alrite::~
until when s fetch me back to coll::~
he told me when he had an argument wid amanda b4::~
he dated her (su lin look-alike)
*imagine my SHOCK~!!!*
he hooked up wid her 4 a few days... then break...
poor gurl nvr tok to him 4 a year ++
but they were ONLY in Form 2 then~
soooo cute!!!!!!

im scared of s and i's future::~
its blurry::~

s sent me to taylors::~
he dint wait 4 my mum though::~
nvm la::~
he made my day d::~

S finally AGREES to go GENTING~!!!

NEWS UPDATE~!!!

ON DA 17/5/07~

S MADE GAVE ME THE BEST SURPRISE EVER~!!!

HE'S COMING TO GENTING WID MEEE~!!!
(b4 dat we had MAJOR difficulties in booking a room in 1st world~ bla bla~ so, EVEN I DECIDED THAT HE SHUDN"T GO)

but now, he's joining me and my frends::~!!!!

IT WUZ B4 LAN CLASS...
MY FRENDS AND I WERE GOIN TO MR ARI'S STUPID CLASS~

I GOT DIS MSG::~

S::~We dont go to the concert ... Then at night I send you home ok~?

M::~Okiee... No prob... pity evvon weii~

S::~No la... she earn alot... My frend sell me 1 ticket for 5 bucks only.. Don tell any1~

Then he send DA BEST EVER msg::~!!!

S::~And da genting 1 i follow u guys la. Ok~?

My status:: CLOUD NINETY-NINE~XD
(btw, i wuz laffing to my self and terrence copied my "laf" and he's spreading it~ by repeating my laf to EVERYONE~!!! over and over~ even if da dude dunn wanna noe HOW I LAF::~ =.="")

M::~Gosh baby~!!! Really~? * Muaxsxsxs~!!! Luv u soo much~!!! XD Then I pay 4 u 1st K~?

S::~Okie~

WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKA~!!!
you hav no idea how glad i wuzzzz~!!!!!

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In LAN class...
thinking why s is being soo nice to me~??
"maybe he wants to b wid amanda and tis is his way to give me final "sweet" memories so that when he DOES dump me~ I wont hate him THAT MUCH::~ yea rite"
*worries*
Haihzz...

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Nite::
s called,
we chatted bout da genting tripp::~
tot of NOT going to da indoors::~ vry vry sien 1::~
so when my frends all go indoors::~
me and s ASO stay INDOORS::~ behind locked doors and everything~ of course XD
the i wuz like::"wad if my frends put hidden cam~??"
s laffed::~

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2 break or not 2 break~??

yes::~yes::~
so much 4 happily eva after~
m and s
ishh~::

he::~
broke my heart wid::~
~1st ex *grrr*
~parents arguments (wad has it got to do wid me again~??)
~emo-emo-ness
~casual break-up scares

*im weeping softly inside*

my brain::~ use me~!!! BREAK~!!!
my heart::~ you r stronger than dis~

chatted wid cyi::~
she's not supporting nor against
told her bout J
O.o
^^...
SHE DINT MIND~!!!
*muaxsxsx cyi~!!!*

chatted wid winnie::~
told me not to pursue arguments::~
let it quiet down~
wait.... and wait....

chatted wid frends (in general)::~
"you deserve better"

*haihz*
but i do luv him~ rite~??

chatted wid Z::~
he said i shud giv it one last try::~
totally against me going 4 another dude~
(i dint say hu la)

and Z has a eating disorder::~
borderline anorexic::~
poor dude::~

now...
s JUST called...
he wuz being sooo sweet~!!!
(changing my mind)
XD
he wuz happy-happy and all~
^^...
S went out wid superviser (aldo)... >>>>hmm or amanda~??
high hopes 4 genting~!!!
XD
he's calling later::
I wonder how's cyi and buuny now~??::
*calling cyi*

ANNOUNCEMENT:

CYI AND BUUNY'S GET2GETER~
TIME FRAME:
13 May 2007-HOPEFULLY 19/20 May 2007
(thats da maxx im gonna giv~ my exams on da 21st~)

CURRENT STATUS::
AWAITING *DA* BIGG QUESTION (on sms~!!!)

CYI'S FEELINGS:
[STATE YURSELF]

COME HOME~~!!!!!!! <3<3<3

~countdown's down there till kiat comes back~!!!!!!

~u better be worth the wait....~

~muackxsxsxs~

argh....

i miss the fucking shit out of you....

why do you have to go to school??

now i have to wait till the evening to tok 2 u...

i have nothin 2 do now and ur not around.......

cyi's mind:kiat here, there, everywhere.....XD

° śέ¢®ξ†ŝ ° -www.shutupandkiss.blogspot.com says:
heyz...wana ask u sth
° śέ¢®ξ†ŝ ° -www.shutupandkiss.blogspot.com says:
other than studies, is there anythin else ur workin after...like a goal or sth?
Kiat says:
yeha
° śέ¢®ξ†ŝ ° -www.shutupandkiss.blogspot.com says:
wad?
Kiat says:
yeha there is one..tryin to get u
Kiat says:
ahah
° śέ¢®ξ†ŝ ° -www.shutupandkiss.blogspot.com says:
come on
Kiat says:
nah..dont know
° śέ¢®ξ†ŝ ° -www.shutupandkiss.blogspot.com says:
im being serious here
° śέ¢®ξ†ŝ ° -www.shutupandkiss.blogspot.com says:
kz
Kiat says:
why u aksin??
° śέ¢®ξ†ŝ ° -www.shutupandkiss.blogspot.com says:
nola...
° śέ¢®ξ†ŝ ° -www.shutupandkiss.blogspot.com says:
was tokin with a fren
° śέ¢®ξ†ŝ ° -www.shutupandkiss.blogspot.com says:
n he asked me wad was i after n i terus blank
Kiat says:
lolx
Kiat says:
so wat u aftr?
Kiat says:
other than tryin to get me' (so perasaan...=.=)

Kiat says:
ahaha
Kiat says:
jk
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Kiat says:
hei i gtg d,,wan sleep..
Kiat says:
need get up and do warm ups before i go
Kiat says:
ahah
Kiat says:
so talk to u 2 moro
Kiat says:
good luck 2moro in your exam
° śέ¢®ξ†ŝ ° -www.shutupandkiss.blogspot.com says:
kk...
° śέ¢®ξ†ŝ ° -www.shutupandkiss.blogspot.com says:
nite nite
° śέ¢®ξ†ŝ ° -www.shutupandkiss.blogspot.com says:
thnx....
Kiat says:
nitez sweet dreams
° śέ¢®ξ†ŝ ° -www.shutupandkiss.blogspot.com says:
u too...better win yea
Kiat says:
xoxo
° śέ¢®ξ†ŝ ° -www.shutupandkiss.blogspot.com says:
nitez
Kiat says:
=p
Kiat says:
for u will win
Kiat says:
aha
Kiat says:
nitez
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being perfect is not how it works...

DAMN IT!!!!
Stop trying to be perfect…

ur not, nobody is and u dun need to be...
So quit torturing urself…

YOU ARE YOU…don’t change…
Stop focusing on the things u cant do…..but on the things you can…ishhhhh
You cant do everythin but u can put everythin into wad u can…

Can understand ar??..lolx…XD

p/s: not scolding u ar...

my tru tots :: cyi plz read & help~!!!::

S called...
Well, actually he called 1st and I left my phone downstairs...
So, I called him back...
Sry baby...
We chatted bout stuff...
his mom is in deep shit~
her "sam pou" in england is a total bitch~
her daughter's bf is a total bastard (borrowed 30 grand and askin 4 more)
s's totally stressed she'll kill herself or sth~
I'm totally stressed cuz i hav to handle him and his tantrums~
his dad's screwed up too~
eldest son a total moron
useless at business::~
bankrupting his dad::~
his dad has to earn at least 40K every mth to keep both families alive::~
pity him::~
now he's gt a gf somewhere out there::~
s's mom vry vry upset::~
goes to her friends who works in bar's to be "selling gals" aunties::~
S's sed his mom cant mix wid ordinary moms cuz she's 2nd wife (mistress)
i supposed so::~
but she nice really::~
fell in lov wid da wrong dude::~
so there::~
*headache*

to s:

::really, I dun mind goin' to CC~XD learnin' 2 enjoy it~ hopefully not addicted although i already am abit
but no basketball plzzzzzzzzzz::
::and im sry I've been so "tey" lately cuz i wanna but im really sry*muaxsxs*::
::I'll promise I'll understand you better,
but if I can make things better, let me K~??::
bout da stuff we chatted,
da main topic wuz bout dat nite where he cried~
and I wuz abit lost for words~
I really wanted to say sth witty~
cheer him up
scared he'll be pissed~
as alwayz~
(workin' on my gf skills)
He sed he went to Amanda for help and comfort~
said she wanted to date him out
bet she went to his hse
made out
he felt guilty
and told me 1/2 da story
minus da make out part...
k la...
im makin dat up
but im paranoid...
sue me~
but if he really wanna go wid her~ (said he STILL have feelings for her~ 1st gf and all dat~)
i think i'll cry::~
ALOT
now, just thinkin' of it hurts::~
he's mine~!!!
*SOB*
anywayz
maybe it'll be better..
he cant *yong* me
I cant handle him~
maybe~
just maybe~
but im perfect~!! Rite~??
i hav to be~
i want him to feel like dying without me~
he left her~!!!
but he's still mine~
isnt there anyway to keep him to myself~??
but there are times where i feel like i want some1 else~less complicated
but i'd feel guilty cuz i dun wan him to playboy me~
i dun wanna playboy him~
its hard~
( Its not his fault im such a dope in comforting ppl ~ yup I JUST F***IN SUCK)
*sigh*
My ideal way to comfort him is to get myself next to him...
hold him close...
kiss him...
make out XD
and tell him to hang on... hope he'll forget it
and that I'll always be there 4 him...
unfortunately::~
on da phone,
im literally and virtually HOPELESS::~
sry baby::~
Trying harder my best... I REALLY AM~!!!
going to cyi 4 help~
toddles~

Question in fon::~

anywayz...
bout da question he asked in his phone...
"I dun think I can fulfil your needs. Do you want to date someone else~? I'm sorry."

I AM NOT HIGH MAINTAINENCE~!!!!! AND NO I LOV YOU... Y WUD I WANNA DATE SOMEONE ELSE~??

so there...
loving himm~

Day out wid frenzz, My B'boy S, Cyi... un-censored

Okayy
Cyi
WARNING
DO NOT READ UNLESS U WANNA...
ermm...
wateva...
Its sick...again..
FULL STOP.

Now.
Full post in ori blog...
censored of course
cont-wif da part where we were at his hse...
NO PARENTS~
therefore...
BED 1st::~
btw, read amanda choe's blog
daoppositeofchoco
not bad...
MANY MANY F***
owh well,
back to da bed part,
s callled his mom
make sure she's far far far away::~
then i lay-ed on him
Zzz...
he wuz exausted
i wuz sleepy-ish
took off my shirt to erm arouse his highness::~
showed-off my new purple BRA~!!!
*heart* da ribbon
anywayz...
showed
s::no reaction
=.="""
kiss-
pants off-
usual bj-
s sed hand job better-
"fine-ish"
switch
he shooted vry vry lil...
no mood i guess::~
then
showed me eutopia::~
*yawn*
my turn-
hand job though::~
vry vry amazin;
i tot all along he did 2 fingers (in)
but actually its onli 1~!!!
OMFG~!!!
his fingers ARE FAT~!!!
anywayz...
told him try 2~
AND IT HURTS LIKE HELL~!!!!
stop stop stop...
(but kinda fun though)
back to 1 finger...
he did it vry vry faz...and forcefull
practically like raping me...
my whole body shook...
he wuz on me and everything::~
haha...
NICEeee....
didnt "come"...
nvm...
had funn...
XD

haha
im collecting them...




































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haha
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XD..hahahaha

c-box

there...
da way he sed it wuz cute~
dunno how to explain to u...

Boring-est day ever~!!!

30-April-07
save me...
s took me out if skool early today...
(im such a good gf really...)
skipped maths
1pm...
took me home...
(since i dint meet him 4 a week d)
guess he wuz "hungry"...
da usual bj...
i wuznt in mood really...
got my p...
*damn*
so i fook xi him lorr...
wanted to watch movie..
he dint wan
(teruknya~)
then we slept...
4 like 1/2 an hour or so...
the he on-ed his laptop...
asked me to press dis file entitled "XD"
i wuz like okay..
but i cant reach da laptop...
( he wuz hugging me...cannot move)
tol him to press it...
IT TURNED OUT TO BE PORN~!!!!
the i tot..
maybe he wants me to learn new tricks...
but it's mostly sex...
i cannot learn...
but he did show me a part where da "main character-rina" wuz moaning her butt off... when she wuz f***in da dude...
so...
i guess s wants me to learn to moan...
okayy...
practise makes perfect...
( funny thing wuz...
when s showed me da porn...
he dint look at da screen...
maybe he's shy shy watchin wid me...
but it wuz like a less then 1 minit watch)
=.=""
k....
then,
s went to make nata de coco...
XD..
da whole can...
then we makan...
on da tv...
nothing to watch...
i went to chat wid cyi...
told her stuff...
pleaded her to take me go see band...
but nooo...
anywayz...
his dad came home..
(thank god we weren't makin out)
opened da door for uncle...
"hie uncle~!!"
(arent i an angel)
XD...
s is da demon..
if it weren't for him...
i wouldn't be so...erm... mature
so there...
s changed 4 bsb..
went to da bsb court...
watched him play...
sienzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...
called cyi...
called ching...
called ...
no one d...
then there wuz dis ADORABLE LIL GURL~!!!
kok weng's niece...
(at 1st i tot it wuz his daughter...)
(but turns out its his niece.... cuz s has a frend hu has a 1yr old daughter on form 4 i think)
she's sooooo cute~!!!
da really can tok 1...
she wuz tokin to da whole group of guyz like she's one of them... and she's ONLY 4~!!!!
XD
then s told me she seyz "diu nia sing" at home...
I LOVE HER~!!!!
not as my sis/daughter la...
anywayzz...
after bsb...
TORTURE~!!!
went home...
uncle wuz out...
drinking wid frends...
so we were alone~!!!
XD...
i knew sth wuz up...
then s went to strip to bathe..
he ajaked me...
I HATE MY P~!!!!!!!!!!!!
so...
he had fun...
i dint...
note: guyz look weird wid their hair down...(if u r used to having their hair defying gravity...)
after da bathe...
i bj'ed him...
and he actually ASKED 4 it~!!!
no fun really...
dressed...
wuznt that hungry...
went back to da room...
then he did this AMAZING THING~!!!
i think it wuz foreplay...
anywayz...
i dun care~
it rocked~!!!!
1st he touched my boobs and everything...
then he kissed my ear~HARD~!!
and he moaned and everything
( ilove it when he moans)
then I moaned...(dunno whether it came out right...)
then i scratched his back...
squezzed his butt...
stuff like dat...
and he kept moaning at my ear...
changing ears...
GOD i love him~!!!
then i tried groping his crotch~(i tot it wud come hard or sth... but it dint... so i guess he wuz doin it to please me...)
XD...
he started laffing...
i started laffing...
it wuz all funny...
( AND I DUNNO WHY)
the later he told me....
its felt ticklish when i did him front and back...
XD...
note to self: concentrate on one part onli....
later.....................
s served dinner...
he did dis really cute thing...
he wuz holding plates ritee...
i wuz watching him serve...
then he said "if u love me , kiss me..."
sooo sweet~!!!
then i moved forwards...
he came...
then i moved back...teasing him...
then i giggled and quickly kissed him...
scared later he marah...
had dinner...
lost to him one-two-jus..
washed plates...
uncle came back...
i had to go...
bb