Well, actually he called 1st and I left my phone downstairs...
So, I called him back...
Sry baby...
We chatted bout stuff...
his mom is in deep shit~
her "sam pou" in england is a total bitch~
her daughter's bf is a total bastard (borrowed 30 grand and askin 4 more)
s's totally stressed she'll kill herself or sth~
I'm totally stressed cuz i hav to handle him and his tantrums~
his dad's screwed up too~
eldest son a total moron
useless at business::~
bankrupting his dad::~
his dad has to earn at least 40K every mth to keep both families alive::~
pity him::~
now he's gt a gf somewhere out there::~
s's mom vry vry upset::~
goes to her friends who works in bar's to be "selling gals" aunties::~
S's sed his mom cant mix wid ordinary moms cuz she's 2nd wife (mistress)
i supposed so::~
but she nice really::~
fell in lov wid da wrong dude::~
so there::~
*headache*
to s:
::really, I dun mind goin' to CC~XD learnin' 2 enjoy it~ hopefully not addicted although i already am abit
but no basketball plzzzzzzzzzz::
::and im sry I've been so "tey" lately cuz i wanna but im really sry*muaxsxs*::
::I'll promise I'll understand you better,
but if I can make things better, let me K~??::
bout da stuff we chatted,
da main topic wuz bout dat nite where he cried~
and I wuz abit lost for words~
I really wanted to say sth witty~
cheer him up
scared he'll be pissed~
as alwayz~
(workin' on my gf skills)
He sed he went to Amanda for help and comfort~
said she wanted to date him out
bet she went to his hse
made out
he felt guilty
and told me 1/2 da story
minus da make out part...
k la...
im makin dat up
but im paranoid...
sue me~
but if he really wanna go wid her~ (said he STILL have feelings for her~ 1st gf and all dat~)
i think i'll cry::~
ALOT
now, just thinkin' of it hurts::~
he's mine~!!!
*SOB*
anywayz
maybe it'll be better..
he cant *yong* me
I cant handle him~
maybe~
just maybe~
but im perfect~!! Rite~??
i hav to be~
i want him to feel like dying without me~
he left her~!!!
but he's still mine~
isnt there anyway to keep him to myself~??
but there are times where i feel like i want some1 else~less complicated
but i'd feel guilty cuz i dun wan him to playboy me~
i dun wanna playboy him~
its hard~
( Its not his fault im such a dope in comforting ppl ~ yup I JUST F***IN SUCK)
*sigh*
My ideal way to comfort him is to get myself next to him...
hold him close...
kiss him...
make out XD
and tell him to hang on... hope he'll forget it
and that I'll always be there 4 him...
unfortunately::~
on da phone,
im literally and virtually HOPELESS::~
sry baby::~
Trying
going to cyi 4 help~
toddles~
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