I HATE HIM~!!!!

hiya...
backk...
note to cyi: pardon my rudeness in dis blog...
im just so f***ing pissed~!!!

let me tell u why...
1#
s told me dat day he dint need to see me every other week...
he can survive..
and then he said I CANT...
fine...
let me show u my patience...
I DUN NEED YOU~!!!

2#
im a very jealous gal...
pris's bf cooked and care and loved...
me??
i aso cooked and cared and LOVED...
but like him...
i got NOTHING IN RETURN...
hence...
Quoting my frendster..
""some ppl say doing more for someone~doesnt necessary make them become more devoted::Then I'll say to do more doesn't necessary mean to expect more back as well""
unfortunately:: to do more without expecting anything back in return is better than expecting it... but i AM EXPECTING STH BACKK::
(like he missing me for instance)
but it aint happening...
he's acting like he doesnt need me...
(maybe its gotta do wid da pc fair showgal...)
FUCK~!!!!
*feel like crying*
it hurts...
it truly does...

3#
DOTA OR ME~??
*understood*

4#
PC FAIR GAL...
im paranoid...
F***~!!

5#
RUMOURS...
that s is a PLAYER..
i have these imaginations...
where i keep expecting s to turn up somewhere in Midvalley...
cuz i went there yesterdy...
wid a gal..
holding her..
then i would see them..
he'd see me..
cing (my sis) would probably look shocked...
i'd either slap him or turn to run away...
then i'd snap out of my imagination...
feeling like SHIT...

CONCLUSION::
i wanna love him...
but it hurts...
so i dun wanna love him...
then it'll hurt somore...
technically im SCREWED....
actually i just HATE PRISS"S BF FOR MAKING ME FEEL LIKE S SUCK~!!!
I HATE MY SELF 4 BEING SO NICE~!!!

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neewayz...
i'd hav to face it...
life's life...
cyi,
luv u...
it doesnt hurt doing tat...
~
but im sorry i cant help u get ben ...(like now)
he's a hard nut to crack...
but do msg him...
last resort...
plz..
( cuz toking through text is easier and u'd become braver..)